Friday, August 9, 2013

Just as our brilliant doctor thought, the medications in the clinical trial were not helping enough. Changes in the pancreas have not occurred (that's considered success by the trial's protocol.) but liver tumors and abdominal lymph nodes continue to grow. So this weekend Rob begins another combination of conventional drugs. Disappointed? Yes! Confused about God's plan? Yes! But confident in Proverbs 3:5-6. Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. I had just read a statement by Sarah Young early Wednesday morning that helped prepare us for our news. " Understanding will never bring you Peace!" Yesterday I kept pounding the heavens with "But why would you have brought us down here just to end up with the suggested treatment of 6 weeks ago? Why did you open doors to get us quickly in this promising trial?" and..."Why did you have us waste precious weeks?" The bottom line... our family doesn't have the answers to these questions and truthfully, we aren't suppose to. Trust in Me, your all-knowing, GOOD Father, not yourself. You are not in control of MY PLAN! I racked my medical and emotional brain all day yesterday and it did NOT bring me Peace. God showing his Presence through his Word and acts of love and kindness throughout the last 24 hours has brought that Peace. Nothing fleeting about that! We've touched and been touched this past month. Our hard working Dr. Abbruzzese really cares about Rob. God fills the halls of MD Anderson with His Presence; we have seen Him at work. Enough understanding for us.. I Corinthians 15:58 sums up what we need to know. Throw yourselves into the work of the Master, confident that nothing you do for him is a waste of time or effort.

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