Monday, November 25, 2013

Precious little Matthew,  
It's only hours before your mommy and daddy get to hold you in their arms. Granddaddy and I are so excited to welcome you into our family; you will bless our lives in so many wonderful ways. But for now sleep tight and know that God, who has knitted you together, has already engraved you in the palm of his holy hand and holds you in his loving arms. 

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Can a heart literally break? I've never felt so much pain, God.  Long, last embraces...heaving sobs between father and son...indescribable anguish. Can I survive such grief?

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

We sit in silence for hours. A memory surfaces, we visit it briefly, then retreat to the quiet. What's left to say? I'll miss the warmth of his hand, the feel of my face against his chest. 
Darkness swallows me. Things are left undone. Friends ask to help, but I don't want the outside world to invade this precious time together as one. I fret! Will God grant us more time? Will our family wait too long to love once more? Days seem to race by and I can't stop time.