Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Sadness drowns our souls. Both of us grieve what we will most likely miss as a couple. The trip to view autumn foliage, playing catch with little Stephen and Matthew, our fortieth anniversary, Bobby's wedding, Disneyland with Sam and Jill.  Sometimes I scream why; other times I shrink with acceptance and anguish. 
We kneel as one; bent heads pour out our breaking hearts. Sweet intimacy soothes like the balm I nightly rub into Rob's edematous, misshapen feet.  How can blessing spill from such heaviness?

Friday, October 4, 2013

You've heard our prayers, oh LORD! More time... Our hearts are are overflowing with gratitude!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

I am so scared tonight! This could be the last time I pack our infusion bag and as much as I hate going to the hospital, I would welcome the long days over the alternative. This is too real; wake me from this nightmare. God have mercy on Rob and me so I will not endure sorrow. (Philippians 2:25-30.) I can't imagine life without him. Please reach down and breath life into his organs!