I'm ambushed less often these days, but when I am, it still takes a bit to pick up all of the pain and put it back in place. 
I ran into some old friends on a neighborhood stroll the other evening; it took only a few minutes for me to realize they had not heard of Rob's passing. Nausea overwhelmed me as I tried to ease the shock of this precious couple.
Today, Nickel Creek stops me in my tracks, takes my breath away.

When You Come Back Down
written by Timothy Page O'brien and Daniel O'keefe

You got to leave me now

You got to go alone

You got to chase a dream

One that's all your own

Before it slips away

When you’re flying high

Take my heart along

I’ll be the harmony

To every lonely song

But you’ll learn to play

When you’re soaring through the air

I’ll be your solid ground

Take every chance you dare

I’ll still be there

When you come back down

When you come back down

I keep looking up

Waiting your return

My greatest fear will be

That you will crash and burn

And I won’t feel your fire

I’ll be the other hand

That always holds a line

Connecting in between

Your sweet heart and mine

I’m strung out on that wire

And I’ll be on the other end

To hear you when you call

Angel you were born to fly

And if you get too high

I’ll catch you when you fall

Catch you when you fall

The memories, the sunshine

Every new day brings

I know the sky is calling

Angel let me help you with your wings

When you’re soaring through the air

I’ll be your solid ground

Take every chance you dare

I’ll still be there

When you come back down

Take every chance you dare

I’ll still be there

When you come back down

When you come back down

I try to steady myself as I listen with new understanding.

...a new reality.

Music was our love language: our daily texts were filled with lines from favorite songs...like Cupid's arrows, they pierced our hearts and made us smile wide.  Soft lyrics carried our intertwined hands and hearts into sleep most nights; those sweet memories still flood my soul and hold me together.

Rob, I wait on the other end, smiling as I imagine you soaring through the air.